November 17, 1999

A spider...just tried to kill me...It was...not a fun experience. Well, its...around 11:00 p.m. here, getting close to midnight. Man, it feels like I have a thousand little spiders crawling all over me. This eerie feeling sucks.

I just got done watching "The Haunting". Most people think its a stupid movie. But I actually thought it was alright. The concept was different thats for sure. The first half freaked me out, yet again. Just like the Blair Witch Project. Both movies are fake as hell, and yet, Mel just has this thing with scary movies. I basically clung to my uncle eddie all through the movie.

Usually when I watch that kind of crap, I get to thinking. Thinking for me is bad. Bad bad thoughts. Why? Cause I think too much, than one day I'm gonna think something stupid, and probably figure something out I shouldn't know. Its weird how life goes. But hey, anyhoo.

Turkey Day, was yum yum. I ate food, made food, made myself up, got perty for the camera. An Illusion, but its always fun to cover yourself up from time to time. No one wants to see the real you anyway. Thats why I have girls who come to my school everyday looking like they are going to homecoming instead of a place to learn. Hey, I'd prefer coming to school in a pair of long johns, a torn up old white shirt, and my pooh slippers any day. I bet a lot of people would prefer doing that.

Than why don't we? Cause we're scared of what other people will think. God, the human race bites. Anyhoo, onto bigger, and better things.

My cousin Greg called today. I haven't heard from him in what...8 years? He's in a band, called "Black Earth" or some shit like that. I thought it was pretty groovy if ya know what I mean. I'm making him send me a tape, woo hoo. His brother Eddie used to torture me brutally, he was everything a little girl could want in a big brother...well rather, expect. He lived with us for a few years, tortured me, scared me to death a few times, made me cry, and uh...thats all I remember. But he is a pretty cool guy. My aunt suggested I go visit them sometime in California, cause they have their own place. I just laughed.

Anyway, enough about them, I gave Greg this webpage Addy, so he might be reading this, and I could be screwed.

Well hmm...Lets move onto a interesting topic that hasn't been discussed in this little updated journal thing. My love life. Me? Love Life? Same sentence? Does not compute. I have a problem. Since I'm knocked out dead tired, I'm gonna share this problem with the world.

I have a serious problem. Yes...I once again just repeated that. Well, it seems everytime I get intimately close with a guy, I trip out, and don't like the guy anymore. There have only been two guys in my whole life I haven't felt that with. One goes to my new school, and suddenly dropped me, so I'm like...confused as hell, and was forced to forget I had any feelings for him. So that sucks. Don't know what happened. The second guy is David, and most of you don't know his last name.

Good. I don't want anyone stalking my baby. heh, yeah right. Well most of you who know me, know who the hell I'm talking about, cause he comes up into my conversations at least 4 or 5 times a week.

Anyway, uh bye.

Sincerely,

Mel